So our ultrasound this morning went well. The dangling choroid plexus is still dangling, but slightly less than before. From 4.9 to 4.1, and could be a considered a normal variant and the only concern would be for it to turn to ventriculomegaly. So we go back in three weeks for another scan, but my anxiety…… Continue reading Deep breath
Yesterday was Father’s Day. Last year mother’s and father’s day came so close after losing Nora we didn’t really have time to think about what it meant to us. Just that we needed to hunker down and avoid the world. This year I made plans not realizing the date. We had a friend’s baby’s christening…… Continue reading Petty
I am in a mood. I don’t have a particular reason for it, but its lingering. Comments about babies and seeing other people’s children hitting milestones are just making me angry and sad. I feel like its 2 steps forward, 3 steps back. I was doing well, talking to other pregnant friends and new moms…… Continue reading Mood
Matt and I finally finished the fifth season of The Wire. I had already watched it before I met Matt but we started the series again together and took a break after season 4. While we were watching the last episodes, one of the characters said: “Ain’t no shame in holding on to grief as…… Continue reading Room for grief
This weekend was tough. My blood work results were constantly on my mind. It didn’t help that on Saturday morning I got an alert that my results were in my online portal but when I logged in, it said there was no sample to test, which then made me think that they lost my sample and I…… Continue reading Good news but the anxiety remains
On Sunday, we arrived at 28 weeks. The third trimester, 2/3’s done. We found out about Nora’s mass at 32 weeks, so hitting this milestone doesn’t give us the same reassurance that it does to the rest of the people in our lives, but I’m still happy to hit it. I wish I could fast forward…… Continue reading 28 Weeks
Today I had a meeting in at the hospital. This meeting occurs every two weeks, mostly in the same spot. The cafeteria above where we were told that an emergency c-section was imminent and below the rooms where I had Nora and lost Nora. I actually thought as I walked over, what a glutton for…… Continue reading Corner of my eye
