grief

F*** April

I have felt so low the past two days. Not all the time, but lingering below the surface happiness is gloom and anxiety. I wonder if I would still feel this way if I lived somewhere sunny? Is it knowing that Nora’s anniversary is coming or is it the weather that triggers the memories?

I keep watching videos of Evie laughing to try to cheer myself up. And she does, she is such a bright light. I just wonder if by ignoring the sadness, I’ll make it worse. It’s bound to catch up to me.

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