Yesterday was Father’s Day. Last year mother’s and father’s day came so close after losing Nora we didn’t really have time to think about what it meant to us. Just that we needed to hunker down and avoid the world. This year I made plans not realizing the date. We had a friend’s baby’s christening…… Continue reading Petty
Today I had a meeting in at the hospital. This meeting occurs every two weeks, mostly in the same spot. The cafeteria above where we were told that an emergency c-section was imminent and below the rooms where I had Nora and lost Nora. I actually thought as I walked over, what a glutton for…… Continue reading Corner of my eye
Yesterday I took a mental health day. It started on Monday with a headache. I went home early, took a nap, woke up at 9:30 and then just went back to bed. I couldn’t get the energy to go to work on Tuesday. Maybe I could have swung it, if I were working from home…… Continue reading Feeling low
This weekend I went home for a girls day with two of my best friends. It was SO needed. My anxiety has been pretty high lately. M’s family had a terrible loss and its been constantly on my mind. We’ve been trying to think of how we can help without equating our loss to theirs,…… Continue reading Treat yo self
We are still moving forward. It’s a weird time. Yesterday I hit 15 weeks, and I still don’t feel comfortable telling people. Currently I just look fat but soon it will be hard to ignore. Our immediate family and some friends know. Seeing me without my wine in hand makes it hard to hide. But…… Continue reading 15 weeks.
After we lost Nora I joined numerous Facebook support groups, found the closest Reddit boards, and read blogs to see what we need to do to move forward. From them I realized we joined a shitty club made up of some of the kindest people. I didn’t meet or read about anyone with the same…… Continue reading Support-ish
“Grief can not be fixed, it can only be experienced. Unless you allow yourself to experience it, it will stay.” “And it can’t be remedied, it must be endured. And it’s the endurance weirdly enough, that becomes the remedy.” Both of these men have seen intense grief and suffered heavy losses. Both have shared their…… Continue reading Grief Role Model?