My grandmom passed away a few weeks ago. She fought to stay with us, far longer than expected. She would have been 94 last week but like a good 94. A relatively spry, still sharp 94. But this summer just spiraled out of control. She wanted to stay at home and my mom made it…… Continue reading A loss, a lesson.
I read about fetomaternal microchimerism, where fetal cells migrate into the mother during pregnancy. Per NIH, fetomaternal transfer probably occurs in all pregnancies and in humans the fetal cells can persist for decades. Microchimeric fetal cells are found in various maternal tissues and organs including blood, bone marrow, skin and liver. Have I talked about that…… Continue reading Fetomaternal Microchimerism
I thought I had been doing ok. Then I realized I made a mistake with Everly’s health insurance. I fucked up and didn’t do the research I needed to do. I wasn’t able to do the research. I was too busy keeping my head in the sand and not thinking about what happens after August…… Continue reading meh.
I am almost 37 weeks pregnant, its a code red heat advisory and our AC has gone out three times in the past week. I am just over it. Last Friday during our NST they were concerned by some of Dot’s decelerations so we had to go to labor and delivery for extended monitoring. Then…… Continue reading Overwhelmed? Over it?
So I’ve mentioned before that we cancel plans now. If it doesn’t feel like I’m in a good head space or feeling up to it, I cancel. I try to do it with enough warning but sometimes it’s day of. No one is safe from it. I have a friend who I used to work…… Continue reading Called out
Yesterday was Father’s Day. Last year mother’s and father’s day came so close after losing Nora we didn’t really have time to think about what it meant to us. Just that we needed to hunker down and avoid the world. This year I made plans not realizing the date. We had a friend’s baby’s christening…… Continue reading Petty
Today I had a meeting in at the hospital. This meeting occurs every two weeks, mostly in the same spot. The cafeteria above where we were told that an emergency c-section was imminent and below the rooms where I had Nora and lost Nora. I actually thought as I walked over, what a glutton for…… Continue reading Corner of my eye