I had terrible dreams last night. They were not even subliminal but shouting in your face resentment towards people who drive me crazy. They supported us in ways they wanted to be supported but not how we needed/wanted? I know they cared and were heartbroken, but not enough. Bah. I went to bed sad and…… Continue reading Womp
I thought I had been doing ok. Then I realized I made a mistake with Everly’s health insurance. I fucked up and didn’t do the research I needed to do. I wasn’t able to do the research. I was too busy keeping my head in the sand and not thinking about what happens after August…… Continue reading meh.
Now instead of counting out the months since we lost Nora we also count the months we have Evie. Its been over 17 months since we lost Nora and two months since we brought Evie home. I have a lot of feelings that could be fleshed out but in the short term, I’ll just list…… Continue reading A different timeline
So our ultrasound this morning went well. The dangling choroid plexus is still dangling, but slightly less than before. From 4.9 to 4.1, and could be a considered a normal variant and the only concern would be for it to turn to ventriculomegaly. So we go back in three weeks for another scan, but my anxiety…… Continue reading Deep breath
This weekend was tough. My blood work results were constantly on my mind. It didn’t help that on Saturday morning I got an alert that my results were in my online portal but when I logged in, it said there was no sample to test, which then made me think that they lost my sample and I…… Continue reading Good news but the anxiety remains
On Sunday, we arrived at 28 weeks. The third trimester, 2/3’s done. We found out about Nora’s mass at 32 weeks, so hitting this milestone doesn’t give us the same reassurance that it does to the rest of the people in our lives, but I’m still happy to hit it. I wish I could fast forward…… Continue reading 28 Weeks
Sunday we hit our 20-week mark. Since I’m having a c-section, that puts us a little over half way there and it shows. I am clearly pregnant and no longer just looking plumper than usual. I told my supervisor last week and she couldn’t have been nicer. She shared with me that she had a…… Continue reading Halfway-ish