The 27th marked a year since Nora came into this world, the 30th marked a year since we lost her. It’s absolutely bizarre to me that it’s been a year. It feels like this just happened, yet didn’t really happen at all. There’s no way we had a baby and don’t anymore. To think that…… Continue reading One Year
Yesterday I took a mental health day. It started on Monday with a headache. I went home early, took a nap, woke up at 9:30 and then just went back to bed. I couldn’t get the energy to go to work on Tuesday. Maybe I could have swung it, if I were working from home…… Continue reading Feeling low
Sunday we hit our 20-week mark. Since I’m having a c-section, that puts us a little over half way there and it shows. I am clearly pregnant and no longer just looking plumper than usual. I told my supervisor last week and she couldn’t have been nicer. She shared with me that she had a…… Continue reading Halfway-ish
This weekend I went home for a girls day with two of my best friends. It was SO needed. My anxiety has been pretty high lately. M’s family had a terrible loss and its been constantly on my mind. We’ve been trying to think of how we can help without equating our loss to theirs,…… Continue reading Treat yo self
We are still moving forward. It’s a weird time. Yesterday I hit 15 weeks, and I still don’t feel comfortable telling people. Currently I just look fat but soon it will be hard to ignore. Our immediate family and some friends know. Seeing me without my wine in hand makes it hard to hide. But…… Continue reading 15 weeks.
After we lost Nora I joined numerous Facebook support groups, found the closest Reddit boards, and read blogs to see what we need to do to move forward. From them I realized we joined a shitty club made up of some of the kindest people. I didn’t meet or read about anyone with the same…… Continue reading Support-ish
“Grief can not be fixed, it can only be experienced. Unless you allow yourself to experience it, it will stay.” “And it can’t be remedied, it must be endured. And it’s the endurance weirdly enough, that becomes the remedy.” Both of these men have seen intense grief and suffered heavy losses. Both have shared their…… Continue reading Grief Role Model?