Now instead of counting out the months since we lost Nora we also count the months we have Evie. Its been over 17 months since we lost Nora and two months since we brought Evie home. I have a lot of feelings that could be fleshed out but in the short term, I’ll just list…… Continue reading A different timeline
I am almost 37 weeks pregnant, its a code red heat advisory and our AC has gone out three times in the past week. I am just over it. Last Friday during our NST they were concerned by some of Dot’s decelerations so we had to go to labor and delivery for extended monitoring. Then…… Continue reading Overwhelmed? Over it?
I saw this image this morning and it really hit home this morning. I’m sad how many people I know are speaking this language
So I’ve mentioned before that we cancel plans now. If it doesn’t feel like I’m in a good head space or feeling up to it, I cancel. I try to do it with enough warning but sometimes it’s day of. No one is safe from it. I have a friend who I used to work…… Continue reading Called out
So our ultrasound this morning went well. The dangling choroid plexus is still dangling, but slightly less than before. From 4.9 to 4.1, and could be a considered a normal variant and the only concern would be for it to turn to ventriculomegaly. So we go back in three weeks for another scan, but my anxiety…… Continue reading Deep breath
Yesterday was Father’s Day. Last year mother’s and father’s day came so close after losing Nora we didn’t really have time to think about what it meant to us. Just that we needed to hunker down and avoid the world. This year I made plans not realizing the date. We had a friend’s baby’s christening…… Continue reading Petty
I am in a mood. I don’t have a particular reason for it, but its lingering. Comments about babies and seeing other people’s children hitting milestones are just making me angry and sad. I feel like its 2 steps forward, 3 steps back. I was doing well, talking to other pregnant friends and new moms…… Continue reading Mood