I had terrible dreams last night. They were not even subliminal but shouting in your face resentment towards people who drive me crazy. They supported us in ways they wanted to be supported but not how we needed/wanted? I know they cared and were heartbroken, but not enough. Bah. I went to bed sad and…… Continue reading Womp
I thought I had been doing ok. Then I realized I made a mistake with Everly’s health insurance. I fucked up and didn’t do the research I needed to do. I wasn’t able to do the research. I was too busy keeping my head in the sand and not thinking about what happens after August…… Continue reading meh.
Now instead of counting out the months since we lost Nora we also count the months we have Evie. Its been over 17 months since we lost Nora and two months since we brought Evie home. I have a lot of feelings that could be fleshed out but in the short term, I’ll just list…… Continue reading A different timeline
I am almost 37 weeks pregnant, its a code red heat advisory and our AC has gone out three times in the past week. I am just over it. Last Friday during our NST they were concerned by some of Dot’s decelerations so we had to go to labor and delivery for extended monitoring. Then…… Continue reading Overwhelmed? Over it?
I saw this image this morning and it really hit home this morning. I’m sad how many people I know are speaking this language
So I’ve mentioned before that we cancel plans now. If it doesn’t feel like I’m in a good head space or feeling up to it, I cancel. I try to do it with enough warning but sometimes it’s day of. No one is safe from it. I have a friend who I used to work…… Continue reading Called out
So our ultrasound this morning went well. The dangling choroid plexus is still dangling, but slightly less than before. From 4.9 to 4.1, and could be a considered a normal variant and the only concern would be for it to turn to ventriculomegaly. So we go back in three weeks for another scan, but my anxiety…… Continue reading Deep breath