I had terrible dreams last night. They were not even subliminal but shouting in your face resentment towards people who drive me crazy. They supported us in ways they wanted to be supported but not how we needed/wanted? I know they cared and were heartbroken, but not enough. Bah. I went to bed sad and…… Continue reading Womp
I thought I had been doing ok. Then I realized I made a mistake with Everly’s health insurance. I fucked up and didn’t do the research I needed to do. I wasn’t able to do the research. I was too busy keeping my head in the sand and not thinking about what happens after August…… Continue reading meh.
We are still moving forward. It’s a weird time. Yesterday I hit 15 weeks, and I still don’t feel comfortable telling people. Currently I just look fat but soon it will be hard to ignore. Our immediate family and some friends know. Seeing me without my wine in hand makes it hard to hide. But…… Continue reading 15 weeks.
M. and I drove to NJ two Fridays ago to get tattoos. This was something we’ve been thinking about for a few months. It’s probably something people would recommend you not doing without more thought. I mean they say no big decisions right? Considering I decided to switch jobs last week, I guess I’m beyond…… Continue reading How we remember
I had a dream on Friday night that I was giving birth. In the dream I knew it was our second child and that it was going to be a girl. I had a c-section again but this time I wasn’t quietly crying during it. She came out perfectly healthy. I kept exclaiming how healthy…… Continue reading Dreams
My very good friend was induced this morning. We went through our pregnancy 4 weeks apart, sharing the weird symptoms and checking in on each other throughout. She’s continued to be a support though I’m sure seeing the worst case scenario play out couldn’t have been easy for her. I woke up this morning with…… Continue reading Get it together.
What do you do when the friends you thought were steadfast, aren’t there for you? One thing we’ve taken from our experience is that M. and I are VERY lucky to have the support system we have. The majority of our family are states away yet we rarely feel alone. But its hard when I’m in…… Continue reading MIA